Yesterday me and a friend spent the day shopping with my boys. It's something I usually avoid but it was fine, we found some good deals, had lunch, the kids played in the mall park.
Our last stop was a trip to the grocery store. They had one of those carts with the car in front, and thankfully two steering wheels. They played some, fought and slapped each other a bit and I was just thankful to be out of that store and done with errands for the day when a woman came up to us and said that seeing my two boys just gave her a meltdown. She was wearing sunglass but I could tell she was crying and trembling a bit when she spoke. She said her two were just that little yesterday and now they are 23 and 21.
And I just keep thinking about what she said, and wondering why she crossed my path that day because I have been so annoyed lately. Sometimes days as a stay at home mom are anything but fun. As I write this Weston has handed me like 20 trains because when he's done with something he assumes I want it, and Kingston is doing parco on the living room furniture...and yep just busted his lip...
Things like that always bring perspective. You hear it from so many to enjoy them now, because it's over before you know it but it just seems like one of those things people say, like "sleep when the baby sleeps" and you don't give it much thought until you realize that your newborn is going to be 4 years old in a few months.
It's exciting to watch them grow but at the same time it's painful, that you can't hang onto the sweet moments, and keep their feet and hands this tiny for longer.
I'm sometimes angry at myself for just trying to get through the day instead of just admiring them sleep, or studying the way there little lips look when they are really focused on trying to figure something out.
Yesterday I was reminded once again, to allow some house chores to simply go undone, to tell some people no and to cherish these stressful, messy, and loud toddler days while they last. I know someday I'll have a clean house, late nights with friends and even quick trips to the grocery store where I can actually think...
But I'm sure I'd trade them to have these days back