But on thursday I got a really good glimpse of what 9 months of my life could look like. And it scared me to death. When I got that migraine, which led to nausea and dizziness and vomiting, I remembered what those first
Reading this post didn't help, but it is true. *sigh*
I don't worry about life with 3, I don't worry about being able to love another or care for them. The age gap is fine, the finances are fine. I just don't know if I'll ever be prepared to go through what I go through while pregnant, but waiting wouldn't really make a difference. It's the only thing that makes me hesitate, that and the fear of miscarriage. But I'm hanging on to His word for our family, so I know it will be okay.
We do make cute babies though, so it is totally worth it :)