I took Weston in for a hair cut. I had been putting it off because they always mess his hair up. I'm not posting a picture...I hate it :(
And then a rumor made it's way back to me, that broke my heart. And I know... I shouldn't let a rumor ruin my day, and I wont because it probably is only partially true. But they just don't get made up out of thin air, you know?
I had lunch with my dad earlier. He always gives the best advice. He told me that some friendships are just for seasons, and some wouldn't even work with the one I'm in now. He said I should look back and be thankful for how much fun it was in that season, and consider it a blessing, instead of feeling regret that it ended. I know I'm at fault for things, but I never intentionally meant to hurt anyone just like I have to believe they didn't either.
I really need to just take a look around, instead of dwelling...back there. Over the past month I feel God is stretching me in new ways. I used to think that we could only find community with people in the same stage of life as us but Ben has found a wonderful friendship with a man as old as his own father.
And I even feel like I'm starting to form friendships with those I never considered. People that inspire, and encourage me, that I can share the deep things on my heart and have them relate. People who I can have conversations with about more than just kids, clothes, new movies, and places to eat. Because while all those things are apart of my life, and while I might just be "mommy" right now, I was made for more. And my heart knows it, and aches for it and longs to be surrounded by those with that same desire.
I'm realizing, that if I only look for those I have natural things in common with, like age, marital status, kids, jobs etc. to find friendships, then they can only go so far. Because in life, we're always changing and entering new stages, but not always at the same time.
So here's me, once again, letting go of the past and looking forward to whats next, keeping my heart open to find community in the places I never thought to look.
Sharing my heart here