It's a decision that was really hard for us to make. Ben and I both struggled with feelings of failure, and that we made a bad investment. At the time when we bought our first home, we felt we were being responsible. We borrowed much less than we were approved for. We got counsel from our parents. Everything fell into place and felt right. We didn't plan for fees to go up, we didn't necessarily plan that we'd have two children so soon, and we didn't plan on the housing market doing what it did.
God wasn't surprised by any of this though...
With the way that God delivered us from that situation, into a home pretty close to the one of our dreams, the timing of it all, the fees waived. I wonder if it was mistake. I wonder if God was making all things work together for our good and possibly the good of another family. I wonder if the family who buys our now "deed in lieu of foreclosure" condo, wouldn't have been able to at full price?
Maybe it was a mistake. But I'm so thankful that by humbling ourselves and admitting that it might have been and asking for help, we're still able to see His blessing. After filing our taxes this year, there really wasn't much difference in the return than in years past when we were homeowners.
It's so hard to know, if your hearing from God. I always had the mentality to just walk through the doors, and pray they shut if it isn't His will. No doors shut when we went to purchase that condo, and none were shut when we needed to let it go...so I have hope that all of this was His plan for us. It's scary walking through these things some times, but it's amazing when I look back and see that His hand was guiding us the entire way.